There is Hope for Me Yet..

So last fall I wrote that I wanted to actually be consistent with blogging.. YET it is the middle of MARCH. fail. Sometimes Life just gets in the way. Lately I have been discouraged because I feel as if I have been so bogged down with the everyday ins and outs of college and work that I have been missing out on taking a part in His work. Everything seems to be the biggest deal but I am taken back when I realize how little ANY of it matters. Not that I should neglect school work, social club, job etc. but I need to DAILY put things in perspective. I want my days to count for more than just a check on a to-do list. I want to live INTENTIONALLY and be constantly working for the higher Purpose.

"So I throw my life upon all that You are, cause I know you gave it all for me."
-Where the Love Lasts Forever

"And me? I'm a mess. I am nothing and I have nothing- make something of me."
-Psalm 40:16 msg

"I've realized just how far away I am from where you are.. broken at your feet I lay the life I've torn apart." -Jesus Hold Me Now 

How great would it truly be to throw my messy, broken life, as it is into the arms of Jesus, with full surrender for him to use me? What would that look like lived out by an individual, by a community? So many times I know I take the life, opportunities, and the mercies that are new every morning and tear them apart. It's like in Romans 8 when Paul talks about wanting to do good but evil is right there with him, sabotaging his intentions every time. Whether that's with sin or just neglect of His Kingdom work- I tear it apart time after time. I have realized it is not in my own ability to be able to fix it or be better, but I have to give it up, I have to lay it down. All I know how to do is break it, I need to learn to simply lay it at His feet so that He can actually make something of it, make something of me. Rising up and completing the most extensive check list in the world will not make something of my life. Rising up and laying it down on the other hand... I don't know. I don't know how to finish that sentence besides in "..." because it seems appropriate. If I lay it down, then comes the "..." and I suppose He can finish the sentence..
 "There is hope, for me yet, because God won't forget, all the plans he's made for me
I have to wait and see, he's not finished with me yet, he's not finished with me yet."-Brandon Heath